i choose You

thought i just post this here too to edify and also to let u all noe wad's up. lol

i have come to a conclusion that my mind is really active. i just can't stop thinking about alot of things, and after talking to some close ppl and stuff, my mind really, at times, think too much. and at times i just feeling like plucking out my brain you know, lol, and i ask God like why He gave me a mind like this. ok, i'm blaming it on my mind. LOL

really, these thoughts have caused me to doubt God. i kinda agree with naz's lil theory on the stage one stage two thing. i think im in the stack where i have to continually renew my mind and affirm my faith. of course i need God.and i'm the type of person, when im onto some thing, im REALLY ON to that thing. seriously i just can't shut my mind up. lol. no wonder those thoughts came when i was drawing closer and closer to God during camp and when i could see alot of stuff happening. even now. i thank God for it, really, cause i understand alot of things now.

He taught me about free will. acty i realised i acty really learnt when i was on the phone ystd. lol. like sharing things with ppl really opens my eyes to how much i've learnt lor. haha. why free will? it makes things all the more meaningful. i mean if God just made us believe liddat and took away all the doubts and stuff rites, it won't really be free will. It's when we choose to love Him, choose to believe in Him.. CHOOSE. this lesson started when i was at my grandma's hse one night making nian gao. was really troubled, and cried out to Him. and den He showed in, in the weirdest way ever. through the shou zu drama. LOL. it was smth like the lady was trying to prove her innocence abt not cheating on her husband to her family. and she did all she could, swearing and stuff. but when they asked her to just test the baby's DNA she refused. not cuz she was guilty, but more like she felt there was no meaning and no trust already. dam cool lah. lol

Norman shared this with cell. "Love God and do whatever you want." it's dam true. this world becomes meaningful when we do things to show our love for Him, when we choose Him. because at the beginning He loved us first, He reached out to us.

and He just kept teaching me that day by day. yes, child like faith. during the sermon after the drama i was pondering over children. over their innocence. dat's why Jesus said, let the little children come to me. yes Lord, gimme this child like faith. seriously i dont mind being called suaku or wad lor, i'd rather not be exposed to those worldly things. but then again God will be pleased when you run away from worldly things for His sake.

<3 manda

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Hey people! This blog needs some entries man! So i'm here to try to boost it's entry count. =] Kekes, joking la..Ok, down to serious business. I just wish to address certain things here on the blog regarding our cell, so here goes..

1. I feel really encouraged to see the way you all teach lessons (with the worksheets and all). It is really very professional, and i can see that a lot of thought, preparations and study have been done before the lesson.

2. Also super-duper encouraged by the love you all have been showing to one another! I can feel that the cell is indeed growing closer to one another. Just today itself, after valentines' day, sam low, cheryl, amanda and joanne all brought food stuffs to share with the cell! My goodness, i seriously almost teared. It was so darn sweet man! Love you all!

3. The attendence too has been very encouraging too! Ok, to clarify matters, we (jess and i) do not get any rewards from the church or what if the attendence is full or over a certain quota, but it is just that we really want to see you guys catch the heartbeat of Jesus for this world that we are living in now. I can see that everyone is leaving cell learning new things and having new perspective about matters. I personally also feel that each cell session now is very worthwhile and meaningful to have. So much has been shared and learnt about one another, and i am seriously loving it loads (i don't know about you). I am very thrilled to see what our cell will be like at the end of the year.

Therefore, i sincerely urge everyone of you guys to continue to let this fire burn in redbloodcell, not for the cell, not for the church, not for jess and i, but for our one and only mega-killer-concept Jesus Christ! Continue to pray for the cell and for your friends, and do invite them for SOS sunday! Looking forward to an exploded RBC!! I love you all very much!

-Normz