Holding On

Hey redbloodcell,

how was ur week? Hope it was great, haha. Congratulations for getting thru the interview amanda! Well done! I'm sure with God's help, u will be able to become an excellent councillor. And for those with tests, dun worry cos God is our strength and our assured victory.

I'm feeling really really drained and shacked rite now. I can hardly think straight, and i still gotta revise my work. Maybe joining canoeing was not such a good idea after all.. =( Sometimes i shudder to think how i'm gonna continue this thruout the year, and even until the next year. Am i going to break down into pieces?

Every night as i sat down, i find it so hard to concentrate on the Lord, my heart is either not still or i feel so weak. I feel like i'm drifting away from God, being caught up in all my weakness and challenges. I cannot think of any other period in the past where i was so short of time. Suddenly, i find that my strength is gone, when i need it the most. To top it all off, i still struggle with calling upon God and talking to Him thruout the day.

One night i managed to pull myself together and i came across Psalms 18, where i learnt that God is where i should draw my strength from, for He is Almighty and will not condemn anyone who takes refuge in Him. I am very tired, but i thank God that when i call upon Him, He is always there to answer me and carry me in my weakness. I need some rest in Him, and i need to draw strength from Him. I want to forget abt all the weights and runs and protein and carbohydrate molecule structures floating in my mind right now. I want to throw away all my struggles with anger and lust. I need a moment of silence with Him.

I pray above all that this is God's will, and that i have not chosen the wrong choice that will affect me for the next two years. But i'm gonna trust that God will give me strength to carry on, cos i seriously dun feel quite myself right now. Meanwhile, lets keep on praying for everyone, speedlight, the church, our frens, our nation etc, and most importantly, hold on to love!

God bless and take care!
Tim