*meow*

this is a very long post.. but spare me.. it is to account for my lack of attendance as well.. ha ha ha. *bows bows*

actually it has only been recently that i have really appreciated god's grace. i myself am amazed that i dare to share this with the cell.. since ive hid myself most of the time in shadows. i was like a ghost appearing when i want to. heh.

the truth is that things only started changing for me after the june holidays. slowly.. it became better and better. and its october now! time has passed really fast!.. ive learnt alot and my perspective of certain things in certain areas has changed. before june i seriously detested school.. no one really understood why and i couldnt really find the help i needed. at that time even walking through my school corridors was a pain.

it started when my best friend left the school this year jan. after she left i went completely out of interest in studies or school. of course.. i did not tell her anything :p .. i tried enjoying school anyway. i was with this group of friends since last year and we could get along quite well with each other. but after march, things didnt really go the right way. i was on mc alot! and most of the times it was because i didnt want to go to school. so when i returned to school my friends couldnt find anything to talk to me about. tada! not much communication.. and it became worse. i didnt go to school more hee hee. i dont really open up to anyone, so! obviously no one knew >_<

long story cut short.. school life became meaningless to me. i did not interact much with anyone. i did not try. i kept going on mc @_@*.. on the other hand, at home, outside, online.. things were as per normal. school was the only problem.

the first day of sch after june holidays i didnt go to school... again! number one was that i was nervous.. second was because i was scared.. and so on.. all the rubbish. i knew i couldnt keep running away.. and thats when i decided to PRAY.. WAH.. AMAZING RIGHT?!.. and so i prayed.. for confidence, help, courage etc to go to school and try to interact and turn things around. the most i asked was for guidance.

RIGHT AFTER i finished that SUPERBLY LONG LONG PRAYER.. i didnt feel scared.. i didnt feel nervous. all those stupid baka baka rubbish lousy feelings all disappeared just like that. i didnt feel anything! and it was good! muahahaha. on that day was the day i started doing my o level art! and the layout that i drew ended up being related to the bible. shiok? god's art.

the next day i went to school. meow. :3 and from that day things went the right way. im having lots of fun in school. my sch friends and i are one crazy group of people now. yes! and so that is all i am going to type! meow @W@

*serene