k refers to the constant

Finally, a post fom me, not related to any announcements!

Thankfully I went for stats tutorial on Friday, cos not only did I have a whale of a time discussing IVs and DVs and research designs, I got to discover a friend. This girl called Charissa, she’s totally dressed like a Japanese girl, and I’ve never had a friend who dresses Japanese. So imagine my surprise when I found out she’s from my primary school, and RJ, and TJ, and she’s not cheena-pok at all.

Somehow she remembered me. At first she asked, “Are you from RGS?”

Well, thanks, I look smart, but “Nope.”

“TJ?” “Nope.”

“OOHHHHH, Red Swas!”

Okay I’ve always called my school RSS (arr(er)-ess-ess) , and ‘Red Swas’ was quite funny. “YES!”

“You run very fast one right?”

“What the……. Yea.. How you remember this kinda things one!”

“Star runner what. I’m from 6/2. Your neighbour class.”

“How the heck do you remember which class I’m from??”

And it went on with my jaw on the ground. Okay the purpose of this is not to brag about how popular I was in Red Swas (though I’m flattered and I seriously didn’t know about this), but how bad my memory is. No la, it’s just that, I think people from primary school to secondary school remember me for my speed, cos apparently, according to her wonderful memory, half of the trophies in Sports Day went to me. But I don’t really want to be known for that. Cos one day I’m gonna lose all that, my speed, and ability to play anything at all, and people are gonna say, “What happened to her? I thought last time she run very fast one? I think she’s lost it already.”

And I don’t want to think that losing “it” means losing myself, and that reminds me of what Rachel said during cell about home, rest and security. Gleaning from the book of Ruth, who uprooted from her homeland Moab to find her family in a foreign land, also God’s land of Israel, she ultimately found her home/rest/security in God. And the Greek word for these 3 words are the same, which means, they mean the same thing in that culture. So, I don’t want to find my security in what I can do now, in what makes me ’successful’, cos that’s just temporal. Whether it’s my sporting ability or my studies or my friends or family. I could have 15000 friends on facebook, but I’m still gonna lose all of them in the natural process of life. My studies or career isn’t gonna save me if I lose any ability to move or think.

Many times people have said, and is not, then experienced, that change is the only constant in the world. But scratch that, God never changes, and He remains the same forever. Even when other religions change their structure and god’s names and rules, sometimes even the Church does that, but that doesn’t disprove Him. It’s just man’s folly.

And that is why, when the shit hits the fan, I may feel tempted to blame God and get angry at Him, but I will always find my faith in Him again, simply because He is the only constant in this world. What else can be a greater guarantee?