to love and be loved

GOD LOVES ME! AND HE LOVES YOU TOO! that He sent His Son to die for us so we might be set free! today was when God reminded me of this very impt fact, which i lost focus off these few weeks.

ystd i was very poked again. on whether i was saved or not and stuff. sian lehh. den i asked God to show me. I was flipping thru the bible to a verse, but in btwn i caught sight of this commentary in my study bible on 3 diff types of Christianity. 1) Jewish Christianity that focuses on the law 2) Christianity that believes that once u're saved, no matter wad you do you'll be saved. 3) True Christianity that acknowledges and accepts the love of God, and because of the transformation and to outpour or love for God and others we serve Him.

den today pastor rony talked abt absence of revival, and i rmbr he said the bible says we are a royal priesthood, and we must enter into that role, and dat our heart must be anchored on the love of God.

pastor pacer talked abt being called by His name. dat He made us, to love us, and we are children of God!

during worship in 9am. i told God i wanted to love Him, and i felt this longing to wanna reach out to Him, to hug Him. haha. i <3 hugs.
den during the alter call thing in spd, pastor pacer said the bible said that God opens His arms to reach out to us, cuz He loves us. and it really dawned on me, i am reaching out to Him, He is reaching out to me, i just have to believe it, and it kinda seemed like a spiritual hug wif my heavenly Father. =) i was not overwhelmed overwhelmed, but tears just came.

but after spd i dunno why, mood swing, mebbe i still dint get it enuff. jerome says im trying too hard, and it kinda made sense. i needed a mentor, and my dad came into my mind when i was shopping, he was like the best person to ask.

this is what my daddy told me, and what my heavenly Father showed me as well.

Accept His love first, you don't have to do anything. Acknowledge HIM! claim that He loves you, claim that He died for you and bought you on the cross as the bible says so.

Believing is accepting. Like a rich man tell you he has cleared ur debt, den you dont believe, you cannot slp whole nite. but you believe and accept it, you can sleep so peacefully. dat's salvation and how it transforms. get the analogy?

Doubt is not the opposite of faith. Fear is. Doubt are just questions, and builds ur faith as you choose to hold on and trust God to ans them in His time. Even if you believe cuz of fear, you fear God. and when you fear God, WHO LOVES YOU, you friggin have nothing to fear. Fear is like an emotion, sometimes it's a defense mechanism dat is built in. just make sure you're not slave to ur emotions can le.

I was focusing too much on whether i love Him or not and whether i was pleasing Him. but my focus should be, HE LOVES ME. cuz only His love is perfect, your love can NEVER be perfect. He gives us blessings cuz He loves us, and we obey and do His will cuz we acknowledge dat He is sovereign and God and we love Him, and in that way we avoid all the stupid mistakes and consequences. and we preach the gospel, cuz we want others to know this good news, and be set free, and cuz we love them. God love us, God bless us, we love others and bless others cuz God loves them. Love begets love, it's a perfect cycle and dat's how the Kingdom of God operates, on LOVE cuz GOD IS LOVE.

WAH i feel and think so much better after asking the person who was there all along, my earthly daddy whom my heavenly Daddy has given authority and the onus to raise me up on this earth.

Lord, i'm gonna trust in You, and focus on Your love. You want me to grow in You and Your want this personal r/s too, and Your ways are way above mine.

in His love and mine, manda